I apologize for not finishing up my writing from my trip, but after getting back I got quite sick and had some catching up to do with both work and at home. But here it goes.
Sunday was my last full day in Montana, and after having done such a hard hike/climb to the summit the day before, I knew I'd be wiped waking up on Sunday morning. I think we all took our time getting up, letting the aches rest a little longer and sitting in our tents, we took some time to reflect on the day prior. For al of us it was quite an adventure, whether or not we made the summit. It had been a tough four straight days of hiking. Really, there was only one BIG day, which was Saturday, but the consistency of the hiking was taking it's toll.
I woke up and was feeling aches all over. I knew I had developed a blister in my right heel. Which really doesn't bother me that much. I have grown used to them over the years playing soccer, basketball, running track and now training for triathlons. They come and go, and I just deal with them. However, the amount of fatigue I had in my legs was incredible. I hadn't ever felt so dead legged before in my life. I think major part of this was due to the lack of nutrients we took out. Yes we did have plenty of food. However, I am so accustomed to having a wide range of food to choose from post-workout to get the proper amount of carbs, protein and fat I need to recover. As well as ample rest time, a comfortable bed and the ability to get my feet up in the air and ice whatever needs to be iced. Not so much in the back country. If I wanted I could have gone in to the glacier fed lake, but being 9:30pm when we got back, that option slipped out of my mind rather quick. I wanted warm food and bed.
My dad and Gary took off about an hour or so before the rest of us to get a head start on the day. Chris decided to hike out the long way, getting in some more miles in the park. That direction wasn't necessarily tougher or easier. There was less vertical change, but more mileage and 3 river crossings if I remember right. So, still difficult with a heavy 3-day pack.
Arley and I took off last and made sure the whole camp was cleaned up, ready for the next group of hikers to come through and use it. We walked past the lake one last time, that had supplied us with dinner of trout for two nights, and were on our way making the 8 mile trek back to the trail head.
The first couple miles went by quickly, about 20min a piece or so. But then we started to hit the switchbacks, and my legs wanted nothing to do with them. We took our time working up them, stopping for some huckleberries from time to time. Arley more often than me. He brought along a plastic bag and filled it up as he walked along. It gave him some time to rest while I worked my way up to him. He hikes in terrain like this daily for work, so he's more than used to the topography and altitude in the area. Whereas a flatlander like me, it takes a lot out of me.
We trudged up to the top of Firebrand Pass again, this time without the 70mph winds, and stopped for lunch. I honestly wouldn't have minded the wind coming up out of the canyon. It would have been at our backs for a majority of the time, aiding us in getting up the scree trails.
When we stopped, this was the last time I had a chance to look back and see the canyon, as well as my brother's route. We could still make out Sheep, Bravedog and 8888 (Lando Peak). It put me in a bit of a somber mood. I was still so angry, and the pain in my legs wasn't helping either. I want to look back and have nothing but joy and happiness for the mountains in Glacier, but I know I never will.
We had a few horseback riders come up on us as we were eating and chatted with them. They asked where we were from, and us the same to them. They were planning on making it down to the lake, but after seeing us, I think they changed their minds. They weren't the fittest looking people if you could believe that. And seeing both Arley and I in our state, they probably figured forget it. We thought about telling them that we had climbed 8888 the day before, so that's why we looked so beat. But honestly, who cares? We did it for ourselves, and we did it for Jake. Nothing else. Which is how Jake was about climbing his peaks and hiking his trails. He never bragged about it. It's just what he did. It doesn't really matter. He (we) was the one doing it, doing it for himself, for his own self-satisfaction. His own purpose. We would listen to the guys he worked with, telling us they had to drag it out of him, what peaks he had done over the weekend. Something I try to do with my training. Who cares if I ran 15 miles or 2 miles. What does that prove to you? We're not competing. I'm doing it because I enjoy it.
Anyways, we finally caught my dad and Gary about 2 miles from the trail head, which was a good sight. We didn't want them to think they could out huck us back to the truck. But it was also good to know they were doing alright, and moving along quite well.
Finally back at the truck, we cracked open a few beers and celebrated our journey. To our surprise, they were still rather cold (thanks Jake). As refreshing as they were, I was downing a 32oz Powerade at the same time. I could tell my system was running on fumes.
We packed up and headed down to pick up Chris. He was walking up the dirt road near the Fielding Trail Head where we started our hike up to Elk Mountain a few days prior, looking just as spent as the rest of us. We snagged him up and headed into the park to drop off Arley and grab our gear that we had stored in his garage while we were out.
After packing up, we were forced to say our good-byes and head our separate ways. Gary and Arley had to unpack and repack for their work week. Chris was headed back to Gary's to rest up and do some more hiking in the park before he headed back to California and his work. My dad and I, back to our cabin to unpack in the new digs and for me to repack to head home. I had a 6am flight out on Monday morning, so I needed to be up by 4am to get there and be ready for takeoff.
Unpacking and packing was like a double-edged sword. It was a great feeling to have such a great amount of hiking behind me. But it was like a sword in my side, knowing that the journey was concluding, and I wouldn't be back there for a long time. It's not exactly the most kid-friendly places. And with my 2-month old, my wife and I don't have a whole lot of options of things to do with her while we're out there until she can start enjoying the scenery and the hiking.
After getting back into reality on the flights home, as well as the drive, I realized I really wasn't ready to be done yet. I enjoyed the trip, especially seeing the things I saw, and mostly feeling the magnitude the surroundings that Jake did before he fell. What a place to go. But too damn early... Way too early.
Being out there, or anywhere outdoors for that matter, always starts me thinking about lots of things. Mostly, what's the point? What's the point of so much forward progress. We're so worried about the next big thing. Being so socially attached, yet so distant in reality. We have so many amazing ways to keep in touch with such a large amount of people. But why? Are we that empty in our own lives that we need to fill it up with everyone else instead of our own? If Facebook, email, text messages and so on were gone, what would we do? Would we feel so much less fulfilled in our lives? To be quite honest, I think we would feel more fulfilled. The more I put away my phone, turn off the TV, and just look and listen to the things around me, the more satisfied I become. Yea, sure, I want my friends and family around me, but that's not the point. Are we really a society that has become so wrapped up in the lives of others that they fulfill ours? No matter how many times you refresh your Facebook feed, you're going to see people doing things. Bringing you down because you'll start feeling like your life is unfulfilled. But if you ask me, shut off the computer, turn off the TV and go outside and do something. Get around a campfire, grab a beer down by the lake. You know, the original way to network socially?
I've come to realize more and more since this trip that it's not really about how many people you know. Not in the least. 75% of those people could think you're shit. What it really comes down to is what people you know. What people stay close to you, and how you stay close to them. Being out there with three of Jake's good friends and co-workers really made me realize how much people matter. Not in a sense of quantity, but of quality. These guys are it. Each one in their own way. Completely and utterly real. No bullshit, just real live people. I think we're missing that a lot in our society today. Hiding behind personas built up online... Face it, you're probably not as cool in person as you think you are on Facebook and Twitter. These things are great for keeping in touch. But if you get your satisfaction from those you'll never see, log off and go make new friends.
I apologize for the somewhat politicized ending, but I started going back through my brother's Facebook and some forums he was on. And you know what, he was so much damn cooler as a person than he ever was on there. And the thing is, those who talk about him and were friends with him on those places knew it too. Jake knew how to live. And he lived as well as he knew how. Maybe not always making the best decisions, but he had fun. And I'm pretty sure he can look down now and not say he has any regrets.
As for me, it's back to reality. The life in a cultured society. But I move forward taking the lessons I learned out in the back country of Montana and am putting them to use in my life every day. As well as in my training. It's back to the training schedules and work schedules. But that doesn't mean I forget about the learning I've done. I feel I've grown since making the journey, and I intend to share my knowledge and experiences with those who ask. I had almost thought about not writing about this trip at all. But knowing I could reach those who care about the trip in one voice, and one swoop makes it much easier for me than having to relive and retell the ups and downs I went through.
So until next time, happy training to all. GET OUTSIDE!
-Dave
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